So here I sit, wound up and unable to sleep, but exhausted at the same time. I wish I was somewhere, anywhere else. I don't understand why I'm so dissatisfied with everything right now! Perhaps it's the hormones talking.
German exam...tomorrow I guess, finally getting a visit from a Dag friend on Thursday (this time it's for real guys.), going home on Friday, rehearsal and thrifting Saturday, easter/family/back to school sunday... paper due monday...
Before the end of the semester I have...
1 hiking trip
2 short essays
a 20 page paper
3 concerts
1 more archaeology exam
2 more German exams
2 finals
a geneology project
fieldwork and project related to that
an audition for local performances in April
that's off the top of my head. There are probably things I'm forgetting.
And so much emotional trauma to sort through that I'm paralyzed.
I watched Julie and Julia yesterday. It made me want to cook so badly, how I loathe the pathetic kitchens in the dorms.
Am I really so narcississtic that I believe anyone would want to read this shit? Heavens, woman. You're delusional. Maybe. But it's better than being a sour, bitter old hag like you. I'm not the one who gets us screwed over. It's you and your fucking idealistic thinking. I have fun! There's no harm in believing in the world. Shit's not as bad as you think. So you say, but I'm always the one who picks up the pieces. However that may be.
In summation, I hate mediocrity. And I should probably check myself back into therapy. Oy.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
3 finals down, 2 to go! One paper and one actual exam. *sigh* I'd rather have 2 exams, to be frank. Oh and I have to finish my costuming projects. Oops. I'm close to being done with them. Just have to finish slipstiching the sideband fabric on my hat and doing the collar/redoing the back pleat/center seam on the shirt. Yeah.
I'm leaving on Friday at some point. Man. I hope I get all my shit done. I need to study for my science exam. It's at 8 in the morning in Memorial. My life sucks. XD I'm really behind because I stopped going to class for about a week and a half, which means I missed a LOT. I don't even have the motivation to reveiw well. Eurgh.I think I'll come back later tonight and study more.
work work work work work. I want to dye my hair but I dont know what I want to dye it! 8O
I'm leaving on Friday at some point. Man. I hope I get all my shit done. I need to study for my science exam. It's at 8 in the morning in Memorial. My life sucks. XD I'm really behind because I stopped going to class for about a week and a half, which means I missed a LOT. I don't even have the motivation to reveiw well. Eurgh.I think I'll come back later tonight and study more.
work work work work work. I want to dye my hair but I dont know what I want to dye it! 8O
Thursday, April 23, 2009
haha
So I'm using the computer in Wilson to write a blog at 12:44 in the morning. I'm so cool.
I spent the last three hours in the music building singing, violining, and butchering the piano. It was rather awesome. I found my high A again, which is a start. It's definitely more difficult than it used to be, but it's there. I scrounged a few skittles out of the trash too. Yummeh.
Vending machine hot chocolate is surprisingly good.
I told my history teacher I'm going to become a nun one day. I'm curious what it'll be like. XD
I've been reading a lot lately. Since Sunday I've read Wicked, Son of A Witch, The Time Machine, and something else. I can't remember the name of it. Hehe. I picked up some random fantasy novel today. *sigh* I do and don't want this semester to end. More on that wangstyness later. Now I'm finishing the trek back to the ISAT side of campus!
PS - Barnes and Noble checkout man was attractive. And he had an accent. TEEHEEHEE.
I spent the last three hours in the music building singing, violining, and butchering the piano. It was rather awesome. I found my high A again, which is a start. It's definitely more difficult than it used to be, but it's there. I scrounged a few skittles out of the trash too. Yummeh.
Vending machine hot chocolate is surprisingly good.
I told my history teacher I'm going to become a nun one day. I'm curious what it'll be like. XD
I've been reading a lot lately. Since Sunday I've read Wicked, Son of A Witch, The Time Machine, and something else. I can't remember the name of it. Hehe. I picked up some random fantasy novel today. *sigh* I do and don't want this semester to end. More on that wangstyness later. Now I'm finishing the trek back to the ISAT side of campus!
PS - Barnes and Noble checkout man was attractive. And he had an accent. TEEHEEHEE.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
"A Collection of old music from a skeevy guy who has the distinct pleasure to hang out with the coolest person ever!"
Aaron finally finished my CD! That is the title of it up there, if you couldn't tell.
So much has happened in the last 6 days. Here's a brief summary.
Speech/essay was fine
I need to quit this habit of spending the nights with sketch older dudes I barely know.
I need to sleep more at night and less during the day
library library library
class selection! 17 credits! Taking German AND Greek
home and easter = yaaay! Sleeeep. Rum cookies. Handel. Oh yes.
Watching Tanz with Jessica! <3
That's about it? I worked tonight, and made some moneys! The cook is very interesting and I enjoyed listening to him. Hrm hrm hrm. Walking in the cold rain is an interesting experience. It's not terrible, but it's not enjoyable...well sometimes it is, but yeah.
So much has happened in the last 6 days. Here's a brief summary.
Speech/essay was fine
I need to quit this habit of spending the nights with sketch older dudes I barely know.
I need to sleep more at night and less during the day
library library library
class selection! 17 credits! Taking German AND Greek
home and easter = yaaay! Sleeeep. Rum cookies. Handel. Oh yes.
Watching Tanz with Jessica! <3
That's about it? I worked tonight, and made some moneys! The cook is very interesting and I enjoyed listening to him. Hrm hrm hrm. Walking in the cold rain is an interesting experience. It's not terrible, but it's not enjoyable...well sometimes it is, but yeah.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
And thus...
The night begins. Tonight will be intense. I have a paper to write on Rome and I need to practice my speech. A lot. I figure if I can get half of the paper written now, I can finish it tomorrow after Gcomm is over if I skip science. I'll do that, unless I get rolling on the paper. If I can finish it tonight before 2, I will. If not, I'll do what I can. I already have an outline which is more than I normally have at this point in time. Usually the outline gets formuated between midnight and three.
Last night was awesome. I had work from 8:30 to about 11:30, and made 26 dollars! Yeah. Last night the owner of the restuarant called and said he needed a server for the night. I only really had one table, but that was more than enough considering I had NO time for training or anything. Yay for jumping in with both feet! I'm such an industrious little worker (I was sweeping and washing dishes as well, which is apparently not part of the job description) that at the end of the night I was told that I could have a permanent job there if I wanted! They also had surplus tomatoes, so I took some to give to Aaron since he's a good cook and stuff.
I texted him asking him if he wanted them, and he did so I walked to his apartment to drop them off. He invited me in for tea, which I managed to make last until about 1 in the morning. XDDD I was really giddy and happy for some odd reason, and he remarked that I was extra cute. ^-^ We were just talking and laughing and the dynamic between us was way different from usual. But it was a good different! The only stain on the time was when I asked about his shirt. The design on it was drawn by the ex. I was not a happy muffin. But the moment passed and all was well again! I left a bit after one, and pranced over to the library to get some work done. AND I DID! I outlined my essay! On my way back I made up a song about tomatoes. It was amazing. I finally slept around 3. XD
In 15 minutes, I wrote the introduction for this paper. I'm a BAMF.
Things I love:
the song "Ghost Love Score;" walking around campus at 3 in the morning; those days when I wake up and feel like a million bucks; seeing ferrets; playing with dogs; having inspiration for papers; dancing in my chair at the library; dancing across campus; being productive; baking (especially with other people); cooking with my father; making music with friends and family; knowing the songs on the radio; my violin; the memories associated with boots; meeting people; sharing fun things with people; teaching violin; performing in an ensemble; that awesome after performance feeling; the memorial day service; knowing I had an impact on someone's life; German; feeling alive; sore muscles; being HAPPY instead of angry; smiling at random people; when people hold doors open for other people; good costumes in movies; making things; being crafty... This list could go on and on!
Last night was awesome. I had work from 8:30 to about 11:30, and made 26 dollars! Yeah. Last night the owner of the restuarant called and said he needed a server for the night. I only really had one table, but that was more than enough considering I had NO time for training or anything. Yay for jumping in with both feet! I'm such an industrious little worker (I was sweeping and washing dishes as well, which is apparently not part of the job description) that at the end of the night I was told that I could have a permanent job there if I wanted! They also had surplus tomatoes, so I took some to give to Aaron since he's a good cook and stuff.
I texted him asking him if he wanted them, and he did so I walked to his apartment to drop them off. He invited me in for tea, which I managed to make last until about 1 in the morning. XDDD I was really giddy and happy for some odd reason, and he remarked that I was extra cute. ^-^ We were just talking and laughing and the dynamic between us was way different from usual. But it was a good different! The only stain on the time was when I asked about his shirt. The design on it was drawn by the ex. I was not a happy muffin. But the moment passed and all was well again! I left a bit after one, and pranced over to the library to get some work done. AND I DID! I outlined my essay! On my way back I made up a song about tomatoes. It was amazing. I finally slept around 3. XD
In 15 minutes, I wrote the introduction for this paper. I'm a BAMF.
Things I love:
the song "Ghost Love Score;" walking around campus at 3 in the morning; those days when I wake up and feel like a million bucks; seeing ferrets; playing with dogs; having inspiration for papers; dancing in my chair at the library; dancing across campus; being productive; baking (especially with other people); cooking with my father; making music with friends and family; knowing the songs on the radio; my violin; the memories associated with boots; meeting people; sharing fun things with people; teaching violin; performing in an ensemble; that awesome after performance feeling; the memorial day service; knowing I had an impact on someone's life; German; feeling alive; sore muscles; being HAPPY instead of angry; smiling at random people; when people hold doors open for other people; good costumes in movies; making things; being crafty... This list could go on and on!
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Wedge: A simple Tool.
Once again waiting for group members to send me their shit. Come on guys, we're meeting in an hour and a half and everything is supposed to be done. I can't finish the annotated bibliography if you haven't sent me your information. I'm not going to go read all of your sources and do it for you. I'm just the format kid. That's how these things work. Oy vey.
I climbed last night for the first time in three weeks and it felt awesome. I'm going to resume my climbing schedule after this weekend I think. Once shit calms down. Yeah. Hahaha. But that was fun! Apparently Scott had been climbing...?
Anyway, Aaron burned me some Tool and gave me those CDs today. I'm quite happy about that, since I reallly liked Tool when I listened to them. He also gave me the headphones that came with his iPod (which he got last night. I was witness! =D) because he already has a nice pair. I feel loveded. But I mustn't get carried away with myself.
This summer is going to be bizarre. If I'm at KD, I'll be in an apartment. I won't be at the good old WTF, I won't be near anyone I know. If I end up having to pull out of the KD contract (because I have nowhere to live yet... problem? I think so), I'll be at home at WT, but I won't be seeing my JMU friends hardly at all. I might spend a week with Aaron, but considering we basically eat at least one meal a day together here except on some weekends, it's going to be REALLY strange. There will be no random song fests with Jessica or pizza and movies with Charlotte. Even though I live sort of near Charlotte and Emily, I won't be seeing them because that's just not how we work. They will hang out but they won't remember me. They rarely do, XD. Ok this is getting wangsty. Must be the music I'm listening to. Aaaah I ended a sentence with a preposition.
My arms are sore! <3 I also have no idea what I'm doing with my life, which is a problem since I need to start figuring out my schedule for next semester. Hard to do when you don't have a clue. I rhymed! I really want to take German and Greek. I have to take a lab science at some point, but German is a 4 credit class (language lab requirement) so I really don't want to pile a lab science on top of that. I might have to, though, which will suck.
Amazing how long you can ramble on when you are stuck, isn't it?
I climbed last night for the first time in three weeks and it felt awesome. I'm going to resume my climbing schedule after this weekend I think. Once shit calms down. Yeah. Hahaha. But that was fun! Apparently Scott had been climbing...?
Anyway, Aaron burned me some Tool and gave me those CDs today. I'm quite happy about that, since I reallly liked Tool when I listened to them. He also gave me the headphones that came with his iPod (which he got last night. I was witness! =D) because he already has a nice pair. I feel loveded. But I mustn't get carried away with myself.
This summer is going to be bizarre. If I'm at KD, I'll be in an apartment. I won't be at the good old WTF, I won't be near anyone I know. If I end up having to pull out of the KD contract (because I have nowhere to live yet... problem? I think so), I'll be at home at WT, but I won't be seeing my JMU friends hardly at all. I might spend a week with Aaron, but considering we basically eat at least one meal a day together here except on some weekends, it's going to be REALLY strange. There will be no random song fests with Jessica or pizza and movies with Charlotte. Even though I live sort of near Charlotte and Emily, I won't be seeing them because that's just not how we work. They will hang out but they won't remember me. They rarely do, XD. Ok this is getting wangsty. Must be the music I'm listening to. Aaaah I ended a sentence with a preposition.
My arms are sore! <3 I also have no idea what I'm doing with my life, which is a problem since I need to start figuring out my schedule for next semester. Hard to do when you don't have a clue. I rhymed! I really want to take German and Greek. I have to take a lab science at some point, but German is a 4 credit class (language lab requirement) so I really don't want to pile a lab science on top of that. I might have to, though, which will suck.
Amazing how long you can ramble on when you are stuck, isn't it?
Monday, April 6, 2009
Control of Atmospheric CO2 by tectonic uplift and subsequent chemical weathering of mountains
... yeah. That's what I learned about in Climate science today. Huzzah! It was rather boring, but at least I went! I've become so much better about actually going to that class, which is why I'm actually slightly optimistic about the outcome of the test we took on Friday.
Gcomm speech THIS Friday is completely kirking me out though. That and the history paper on Rome. I like Rome and all, because it makes me think of Latin, but I was absent on the days we took notes on Rome and so I'm waiting for someone who's waiting for someone to get her the notes and blah blah blah. Plus, the library is only open until two in the morning so I can't write until 4 or 5 am the day it's due like I normally do. *sigh* This is a dangerous game I'm playing.
IN other news, I had a series of rather frightening dreams last night/this morning when I took my nap. It was distressing. What is also distressing is the fact that I'm in the computer lab and the man next to me is super sketch and 42 and checking his personals and writing slightly inappropriate emails.
Yes I am a nosey bastard.
Also this morning, [huge geekout ahead] I decided to Elf it up, but as I was putting on my Evenstar necklace, the pendant fell off and hit the floor. I had this horrible vision of the movie clip in my mind (when it falls off of Aragorn and shatters) and it was really quite traumatizing. However, when I opened my eyes once again, it was still intact. So a crisis was averted. See, it was a gift. I dislike the boy now, because he's a tool, a deserter, and a liar, but it's still a nice piece of jewelry that had a nice sentiment at the time it was given.
The good news is that I'm going HOME this weekend so I can rest, see Sparkle, and just detox from all the JMU crap that's been going on. Hopefully there will be muffins made. With Aaron R. WE ALL KNOW WHAT HAPPENED LAST TIME. Oh ho ho. Also! It's Easter so there will be pretty musics, but no strings, which is tragic for me because I won't be seeing my favorite violinist. But I get to see Tiffany and Aunt Gail and Uncle Bob so that is cause for rejoicing.
One of my high school seniors is coming to JMU for a last tour thing on Wednesday so I'm going to have lunch with her and tell her alllll the great stories about JMU. I think I should leave out the parts related to Squire Hill... Bahahaha. I think this will be fun.
...man, I'm hungry. But I have to wait another hour before I can go get food. Mmm bread. And hummus. OM nom nom nom....... er...
I hate having to sit here and twiddle my thumbs because I'm still waiting for my group to send me their crap. We had to re-do the annotated bibliography in a different format to appease the prof, so I'm stuck waiting for everyone to RE-send me their crap. And I know one person definitely won't. I don't understand the word "won't." If it's supposed to be a contraction of "will not," how the hell did the o get in there? It should be wiln't. I also thought amn't was a word when I was in second grade. It should be a word, imho. Am not. Amn't. Yeah.
OH English, what a silly language you are.
I think this post has gone on quite long enough. I should practice my speech. But I won't. THERE IT IS AGAIN. Curse you, "won't!"
Before I go, I will close with the idea that my writing is really quite deplorable and if I had any skill at all, I would be able to make my words emphatic enough without the aid of unnecessary capitalization. Yes. Quite. Lovely.
Gcomm speech THIS Friday is completely kirking me out though. That and the history paper on Rome. I like Rome and all, because it makes me think of Latin, but I was absent on the days we took notes on Rome and so I'm waiting for someone who's waiting for someone to get her the notes and blah blah blah. Plus, the library is only open until two in the morning so I can't write until 4 or 5 am the day it's due like I normally do. *sigh* This is a dangerous game I'm playing.
IN other news, I had a series of rather frightening dreams last night/this morning when I took my nap. It was distressing. What is also distressing is the fact that I'm in the computer lab and the man next to me is super sketch and 42 and checking his personals and writing slightly inappropriate emails.
Yes I am a nosey bastard.
Also this morning, [huge geekout ahead] I decided to Elf it up, but as I was putting on my Evenstar necklace, the pendant fell off and hit the floor. I had this horrible vision of the movie clip in my mind (when it falls off of Aragorn and shatters) and it was really quite traumatizing. However, when I opened my eyes once again, it was still intact. So a crisis was averted. See, it was a gift. I dislike the boy now, because he's a tool, a deserter, and a liar, but it's still a nice piece of jewelry that had a nice sentiment at the time it was given.
The good news is that I'm going HOME this weekend so I can rest, see Sparkle, and just detox from all the JMU crap that's been going on. Hopefully there will be muffins made. With Aaron R. WE ALL KNOW WHAT HAPPENED LAST TIME. Oh ho ho. Also! It's Easter so there will be pretty musics, but no strings, which is tragic for me because I won't be seeing my favorite violinist. But I get to see Tiffany and Aunt Gail and Uncle Bob so that is cause for rejoicing.
One of my high school seniors is coming to JMU for a last tour thing on Wednesday so I'm going to have lunch with her and tell her alllll the great stories about JMU. I think I should leave out the parts related to Squire Hill... Bahahaha. I think this will be fun.
...man, I'm hungry. But I have to wait another hour before I can go get food. Mmm bread. And hummus. OM nom nom nom....... er...
I hate having to sit here and twiddle my thumbs because I'm still waiting for my group to send me their crap. We had to re-do the annotated bibliography in a different format to appease the prof, so I'm stuck waiting for everyone to RE-send me their crap. And I know one person definitely won't. I don't understand the word "won't." If it's supposed to be a contraction of "will not," how the hell did the o get in there? It should be wiln't. I also thought amn't was a word when I was in second grade. It should be a word, imho. Am not. Amn't. Yeah.
OH English, what a silly language you are.
I think this post has gone on quite long enough. I should practice my speech. But I won't. THERE IT IS AGAIN. Curse you, "won't!"
Before I go, I will close with the idea that my writing is really quite deplorable and if I had any skill at all, I would be able to make my words emphatic enough without the aid of unnecessary capitalization. Yes. Quite. Lovely.
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