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So I'm using the computer in Wilson to write a blog at 12:44 in the morning. I'm so cool.

I spent the last three hours in the music building singing, violining, and butchering the piano. It was rather awesome. I found my high A again, which is a start. It's definitely more difficult than it used to be, but it's there. I scrounged a few skittles out of the trash too. Yummeh.

Vending machine hot chocolate is surprisingly good.

I told my history teacher I'm going to become a nun one day. I'm curious what it'll be like. XD

I've been reading a lot lately. Since Sunday I've read Wicked, Son of A Witch, The Time Machine, and something else. I can't remember the name of it. Hehe. I picked up some random fantasy novel today. *sigh* I do and don't want this semester to end. More on that wangstyness later. Now I'm finishing the trek back to the ISAT side of campus!

PS - Barnes and Noble checkout man was attractive. And he had an accent. TEEHEEHEE.

"A Collection of old music from a skeevy guy who has the distinct pleasure to hang out with the coolest person ever!"

Aaron finally finished my CD! That is the title of it up there, if you couldn't tell.

So much has happened in the last 6 days. Here's a brief summary.
Speech/essay was fine
I need to quit this habit of spending the nights with sketch older dudes I barely know.
I need to sleep more at night and less during the day
library library library
class selection! 17 credits! Taking German AND Greek
home and easter = yaaay! Sleeeep. Rum cookies. Handel. Oh yes.
Watching Tanz with Jessica! <3

That's about it? I worked tonight, and made some moneys! The cook is very interesting and I enjoyed listening to him. Hrm hrm hrm. Walking in the cold rain is an interesting experience. It's not terrible, but it's not enjoyable...well sometimes it is, but yeah.

And thus...

The night begins. Tonight will be intense. I have a paper to write on Rome and I need to practice my speech. A lot. I figure if I can get half of the paper written now, I can finish it tomorrow after Gcomm is over if I skip science. I'll do that, unless I get rolling on the paper. If I can finish it tonight before 2, I will. If not, I'll do what I can. I already have an outline which is more than I normally have at this point in time. Usually the outline gets formuated between midnight and three.

Last night was awesome. I had work from 8:30 to about 11:30, and made 26 dollars! Yeah. Last night the owner of the restuarant called and said he needed a server for the night. I only really had one table, but that was more than enough considering I had NO time for training or anything. Yay for jumping in with both feet! I'm such an industrious little worker (I was sweeping and washing dishes as well, which is apparently not part of the job description) that at the end of the night I was told that I could have a permanent job there if I wanted! They also had surplus tomatoes, so I took some to give to Aaron since he's a good cook and stuff.

I texted him asking him if he wanted them, and he did so I walked to his apartment to drop them off. He invited me in for tea, which I managed to make last until about 1 in the morning. XDDD I was really giddy and happy for some odd reason, and he remarked that I was extra cute. ^-^ We were just talking and laughing and the dynamic between us was way different from usual. But it was a good different! The only stain on the time was when I asked about his shirt. The design on it was drawn by the ex. I was not a happy muffin. But the moment passed and all was well again! I left a bit after one, and pranced over to the library to get some work done. AND I DID! I outlined my essay! On my way back I made up a song about tomatoes. It was amazing. I finally slept around 3. XD

In 15 minutes, I wrote the introduction for this paper. I'm a BAMF.

Things I love:
the song "Ghost Love Score;" walking around campus at 3 in the morning; those days when I wake up and feel like a million bucks; seeing ferrets; playing with dogs; having inspiration for papers; dancing in my chair at the library; dancing across campus; being productive; baking (especially with other people); cooking with my father; making music with friends and family; knowing the songs on the radio; my violin; the memories associated with boots; meeting people; sharing fun things with people; teaching violin; performing in an ensemble; that awesome after performance feeling; the memorial day service; knowing I had an impact on someone's life; German; feeling alive; sore muscles; being HAPPY instead of angry; smiling at random people; when people hold doors open for other people; good costumes in movies; making things; being crafty... This list could go on and on!

Wedge: A simple Tool.

Once again waiting for group members to send me their shit. Come on guys, we're meeting in an hour and a half and everything is supposed to be done. I can't finish the annotated bibliography if you haven't sent me your information. I'm not going to go read all of your sources and do it for you. I'm just the format kid. That's how these things work. Oy vey.

I climbed last night for the first time in three weeks and it felt awesome. I'm going to resume my climbing schedule after this weekend I think. Once shit calms down. Yeah. Hahaha. But that was fun! Apparently Scott had been climbing...?

Anyway, Aaron burned me some Tool and gave me those CDs today. I'm quite happy about that, since I reallly liked Tool when I listened to them. He also gave me the headphones that came with his iPod (which he got last night. I was witness! =D) because he already has a nice pair. I feel loveded. But I mustn't get carried away with myself.

This summer is going to be bizarre. If I'm at KD, I'll be in an apartment. I won't be at the good old WTF, I won't be near anyone I know. If I end up having to pull out of the KD contract (because I have nowhere to live yet... problem? I think so), I'll be at home at WT, but I won't be seeing my JMU friends hardly at all. I might spend a week with Aaron, but considering we basically eat at least one meal a day together here except on some weekends, it's going to be REALLY strange. There will be no random song fests with Jessica or pizza and movies with Charlotte. Even though I live sort of near Charlotte and Emily, I won't be seeing them because that's just not how we work. They will hang out but they won't remember me. They rarely do, XD. Ok this is getting wangsty. Must be the music I'm listening to. Aaaah I ended a sentence with a preposition.

My arms are sore! <3 I also have no idea what I'm doing with my life, which is a problem since I need to start figuring out my schedule for next semester. Hard to do when you don't have a clue. I rhymed! I really want to take German and Greek. I have to take a lab science at some point, but German is a 4 credit class (language lab requirement) so I really don't want to pile a lab science on top of that. I might have to, though, which will suck.

Amazing how long you can ramble on when you are stuck, isn't it?

Control of Atmospheric CO2 by tectonic uplift and subsequent chemical weathering of mountains

... yeah. That's what I learned about in Climate science today. Huzzah! It was rather boring, but at least I went! I've become so much better about actually going to that class, which is why I'm actually slightly optimistic about the outcome of the test we took on Friday.

Gcomm speech THIS Friday is completely kirking me out though. That and the history paper on Rome. I like Rome and all, because it makes me think of Latin, but I was absent on the days we took notes on Rome and so I'm waiting for someone who's waiting for someone to get her the notes and blah blah blah. Plus, the library is only open until two in the morning so I can't write until 4 or 5 am the day it's due like I normally do. *sigh* This is a dangerous game I'm playing.

IN other news, I had a series of rather frightening dreams last night/this morning when I took my nap. It was distressing. What is also distressing is the fact that I'm in the computer lab and the man next to me is super sketch and 42 and checking his personals and writing slightly inappropriate emails.
Yes I am a nosey bastard.

Also this morning, [huge geekout ahead] I decided to Elf it up, but as I was putting on my Evenstar necklace, the pendant fell off and hit the floor. I had this horrible vision of the movie clip in my mind (when it falls off of Aragorn and shatters) and it was really quite traumatizing. However, when I opened my eyes once again, it was still intact. So a crisis was averted. See, it was a gift. I dislike the boy now, because he's a tool, a deserter, and a liar, but it's still a nice piece of jewelry that had a nice sentiment at the time it was given.

The good news is that I'm going HOME this weekend so I can rest, see Sparkle, and just detox from all the JMU crap that's been going on. Hopefully there will be muffins made. With Aaron R. WE ALL KNOW WHAT HAPPENED LAST TIME. Oh ho ho. Also! It's Easter so there will be pretty musics, but no strings, which is tragic for me because I won't be seeing my favorite violinist. But I get to see Tiffany and Aunt Gail and Uncle Bob so that is cause for rejoicing.

One of my high school seniors is coming to JMU for a last tour thing on Wednesday so I'm going to have lunch with her and tell her alllll the great stories about JMU. I think I should leave out the parts related to Squire Hill... Bahahaha. I think this will be fun.

...man, I'm hungry. But I have to wait another hour before I can go get food. Mmm bread. And hummus. OM nom nom nom....... er...

I hate having to sit here and twiddle my thumbs because I'm still waiting for my group to send me their crap. We had to re-do the annotated bibliography in a different format to appease the prof, so I'm stuck waiting for everyone to RE-send me their crap. And I know one person definitely won't. I don't understand the word "won't." If it's supposed to be a contraction of "will not," how the hell did the o get in there? It should be wiln't. I also thought amn't was a word when I was in second grade. It should be a word, imho. Am not. Amn't. Yeah.

OH English, what a silly language you are.

I think this post has gone on quite long enough. I should practice my speech. But I won't. THERE IT IS AGAIN. Curse you, "won't!"

Before I go, I will close with the idea that my writing is really quite deplorable and if I had any skill at all, I would be able to make my words emphatic enough without the aid of unnecessary capitalization. Yes. Quite. Lovely.

Nothing? Nothing, tra la la?

Today was...strange.



I spent the night with Aaron, thoroughly enjoying myself... we still haven't gotten around to actually watching The Red Violin, but nevertheless it was a good time. I left his place around 11:30, took a shower, and went to the library until about 3. I like the library.

Then ADVENTURE TIME! I was decked out in spiffyness and feeling awesome so I had to go ponce around Harrisonburg. I traipsed about for a few hours, sitting in various cafes and not ordering anything because I'm poor. I wandered into a slightly sketchy area and was entirely freaked out when a scary man started to follow me. I lost him by calling my brother and walking into the health and safety building. I pet a boxer and wandered some more!

I found this little cafe place called Franklin's and it made me really happy. I told the owner I had no money, but he said I could sit and chillax as long as I wanted. The newspaper was there doing a feature on the place and the photojournalist was taking pictures of me. Since I was kind of doing an advertising thing for them, the owner gave me a free sandwich! It was delicioussss. I left my name and number in case they need a waitress anytime in the next month. When you're poor, it's good to be cute. ^-^ AND MODEST.

While walking back to campus, I ran into William Alexander so we walked back together. It was not unpleasant. Jessica and I sat out on the quad for a while and there was a ferret! We got to hold her and she was so wriggley and cute and fuzzy and I'm dying to own a ferret now. D-hall was amusing, and ice cream is delicous! Jessica and I walked t0 the library, and on the way we found a really cute orange tank top just lying on the ground. I took it home with me and intend to wear it. Once I've washed it, at least. I went back to Jessica's dorm and watched Kung Fu Panda. It was kind of adorable.

THEN back to the library to finish my work. Except my group members suck and haven't emailed me their parts to the annotated bibliography. So I'm stuck here until they do so. Hah, I said so a lot in that sentence. WHeeeee! I like tea.

....and then I found 20 dollars!

Follow me over an unending bridge of song

So much drama, so little time.

Apart from all that, which I am tired of thinking about, there is only a month left in my freshman year of college. Whut. Where on earth did the time go?! I feel no older or wiser than I did when I left high school. Just more bitter and angry, if that's even possible. XD In fact I feel like I've gotten stupider. Although, I will concede to feeling much more independent and self-sufficient.

College has been very different from what I thought it would be. I thought it would be like what Meri and Veet went through. My experience is vastly different. A sad lack of nerds has led to a major shift in personality and a rather frightening loss of self identity. At the same time, I believe that this change will ultimately be for the better. I recognize the fact that I don't know jack shit, now, and that that is ok. I sort of wish I knew what direction my life was going, but now I know about a lot more alternative options for life to take. It had been my intention to live like everyone else eventually, but now I would really rather not have the permanent house or job. I want to wander around and meet people. Travel. LOTS. Oh hell, here I go, waxing wannabe poetic or some shit like that. I do swear a lot more than I used to, if you can believe that.

In other news, I like bagels, they're crunchy. If done correctly. Brunch was a bagel with some butter. Lunch was a sesame seed butter sammich and banana. DELICIOUS. baaagelllsss.

I painted flames on my kick ass boots and they are now even more kick ass than before. THAT is one thing that has changed. I am much less afraid of tearing apart my clothing and redoing it than before. A year ago I would have been too scared to try and paint flames on these boots. I'm glad I did though. I'm thinking about doing that to earn some cash on the side... set up an ebay account of my own, buy boots/clothes from Goodwill and customize them. Apparently there's a big market for that kind of thing. I should learn to embroider, that would be even cooler. If I could put embroidery on this fake leather jacket... Hmmm... I think I will! On the cuffs... it would be really hard to do on real leather, though. I'll look into it.